Alas, there is no secret lover. In fact, there is no lover period.
I'm bored ladies and gentlemen. Bored with my non existent love life. While it seems to be more productive for my healthier lifestyle (healthier because I don't go on dates that include dinner...hence don't overeat)...I'm bored. How do I get out there and meet a quality man? Don't say bars; I don't drink and watching men fall into a stupor and say ridiculous things while grabbing my ass doesn't work for me. I know it's cause they're drunk and they don't act like that sober, but who wants that? I can't "look the other way" until they sober up. Please don't say online either. Tried that. Oh, the stories I have. Maybe next time I don't feel like writing about dieting, I'll tell you one of these stories. They're hilarious, classic, and downright amazing. My sister met her husband online and I'm telling you, it can work. But it's not for me. I need to meet someone in person and see what kind of chemistry we have. I like to look into someone's eyes. I like to watch their smile form and fade. I like to have constant and immediate conversation; emailing back and forth can be tedious and extremely frustrating when you're excited about someone. You would think 'church', but it seems the men in my church...or my 'ward' (mormon lingo) specifically, aren't interested in women. Women like me, anyway.
I am starting to think I'm a "girl's girl". Every woman, young and old, tells me I'm cute and precious. I'm so darling. I'm lovely. I'm just so bubbly and enthusiastic on life and fun. I'm just so smart and witty and sharp. While I love it and appreciate all compliments these women give me- men and women are wired differently and what women find "cute and precious", men don't seem to find sexy. And I don't want to get stuck in this "girl's girl" category. While I love my women friends and love the bonds and connections we make, I need a man. A real live man. A grown man who is responsible and handle's his business.