You guys, I know I say this every week, but this time I mean it. I think I'm seriously hovering at a stopping point. Let me explain.
Last week on my Fat Flush diet, I went from 145 at WW on Monday to 139 by Thursday. I was super excited and on a rampage. But then I had a little plunge in will power, which meant a spike in the scale. By Sunday I was back up to 142. This week has been a struggle to get down and stay down between 141 and 139. I cannot seem to stay down. I've been working out everyday for 40 minutes or more (cardio). I've been eating good by WW standards (not FF standards). I wanted really bad to be at 139 by the time I went home this weekend, but after a quickie date (frozen yogurt) last night, I'm back up to 141.8 and I'm pretty sure that it won't be going back down by tomorrow (when I go home). I'm torn between trying to do FF again, this time for the 2 weeks I'm supposed to...and just accepting I don't do well long term on diets like this and going back to doing regular WW. Don't get me wrong, I think FF is fabulous. But it takes a lot of energy to plan your meals and prepare them, and I'm just not good with that. Never have been. I get nervous though because I know as I get smaller, I'm going to have to work harder. I purposely haven't been to WW to weigh in because I wanted to be down to 139 for weigh in, but I can't seem to stay there. No matter what I do, if I SMELL food I gain back up to 141. I simply touch 139 and then immediately bounce back up. And then I struggle to get down to touch it again. UGHHHHHH
The thing is, I really do want to lose these last 10 pounds. For years I've always said this, and not done much about it. But this year I really really want it. I'm sick of always thinking about it. I'm sick of never being able to quite get there. The problem is, I'm realizing that I'm most likely going to have to put in everything I have in me, and I'm not sure I'm mentally ready to do that. I know, you're thinking...what? Why would you say you want to lose it all if you're not willing to do everything it takes? Whaa whaa...who cares Diz. I know. I should stop whining, I know. It's just hard. It's mentally just as taxing as it is physically sometimes.
Ok, I feel a little bad for whining, but I'm leaving the post as is so you can at least know the struggle is there and I'm having to deal with it.