I'm starting to get scared of the scale. I saw some pictures on Facebook that were posted recently of me and I look pregnant, and I can tell from the way my face looks, that I'm getting fatter. Well, I already knew I was getting fatter...but seeing the pictures confirmed it. I don't want the scale to confirm it again is my point.
I'm really stressed out. Money seems to be pouring out of my savings account faster than I can replace it and that is stressing me out. I'm moving on Saturday and NR just called to tell me she hired movers to move her crap. While I'm glad we're making progress, I'm torn. I don't have anyone to help me move yet, but I don't want to pay movers to move my stuff, when I can get some boys to come do it for free. But I need boys...
I'm sorry my posts have been so sporadic and bizarre lately. I'm going through a lot right now and I don't know where to begin, or what to do. I just keep telling myself, just get through this week- just get through this week. Next week will be so much better because I'll be moved into the new place, out of the old, and on with my life- and that part of things will be settled. But then I think- aren't you always saying that D? Aren't you always saying- next week? When is it going to be this week?
I've also had an epiphany yesterday as far as my weight loss/gain. The Fat Flush was low carb, high fat. Weight Watchers is low fat/doesn't matter on carbs. When you mix the two and then cheat...GAIN. :) This is why I'm gaining, I'm telling you. YOU think I'm paranoid; I know my body. I'm gaining. I don't want to confirm it. However, I know I can't really move forward until I know where I'm at- so I'm going to try to go in Friday to weigh in. Saturday we're moving, starting at 7:30 am (weigh in is at 8). Friday will still be tough though because I met this guy today while at work (he was networking) and he's doing some presentations on Friday at a high school I really want to get in with (I'm talking work stuff here...something I NEVER do), so he agreed to let me come to his presentation to introduce me to some key people. It starts at 7:30. How am I going to go weigh in? If I can just get through this DAY...
My mind is fried.