Well, today started out as the best day ever...I had super great control all day and was feeling great about things. Then this evening came. Not only did I not get to go for a run like I had planned (a dear childhood friend showed up at my house), my friend brought me home-made salsa. With chips. Have I ever mentioned that chips are a trigger for me? Have I ever mentioned that home-made salsa is a trigger for me? Have I ever mentioned that the two together is a dangerous situation for me?
I actually didn't do that bad on the chips and salsa- believe it or not. I'm pretty proud of myself- I've been doing really well at self control lately and I'm excited about it. If I can just keep it up! I'm just bummed because it's 9:30 and it's too late to go for that run. And because TOM is on his way...I'm feeling extra bloaty. I was really looking forward to that run. I don't know why, but seriously I was really looking forward to it. I'm sure the salt from those chips isn't helping anything...I think I've finally hit that point where my body isn't dreading the workouts anymore but is actually enjoying them and looking forward to them so when I don't get them in I actually feel guilty and want them. Have I mentioned I moved to 12th spot in the Biggest Loser competition? Right now it is getting hard for some of the girls- there are quite a few who have dropped out so far. But I'm not on the bottom! But I'd like to move up the ladder again- last week just did me in.
You'd also be proud of me- I didn't have a Coke Zero today! I saw one- and it was chilled and looked so good, but I said no. I have more control! I ended up having a Fresca tonight though to stop my chips/salsa situation. Fresca is my go to- emergency soday when I have to have something. It has 0 calories, 0 fat, 0 protein, 35 mg sodium, 0 sugar...and I didn't finish the can. I just needed it to help me stop the chip obsession. I can still taste the salt on my lips...mmmm...
I need a boy to make out with. This lag in men is driving me insane.
There are my random thoughts for the day- hope you enjoyed!