Today was tough- I'm not going to lie.
All day I was struggling. For some reason this time around I cannot kick Coke Zero. I just can't. Everyday I get up saying I'm not having any soda today, drink my tea, make my plan for the day...and then half way through the day I "just can't do it anymore" and have one. Or I see one when I go to the vending machine to get a water, and it just looks so delicious that i have to have it. Or I'm kind of hungry and remember that when I drink one, I can last another hour without eating. It is driving me insane. I honestly believe that's why the weight isn't falling off- with all of the hard work I'm doing. Everything else is on point- and yet I'm cycling and cycling because I can't kick the soda. GRRRRRRR
I was at the gym tonight trying to do some cardio when someone came into the gym I didn't want to see. Oh hell, here we go I thought to myself. When she wasn't looking, I snuck off the treadmill and ran right out of the gym- only 27 minutes of cardio done. On the drive home I just kept thinking, that's not enough. I didn't eat that bad today- but I absolutely need this week to be a good week, and I had yet another coke zero today. I knew I had to do at least another 20 minutes of cardio to feel okay about this day. Minimum.
But what was I going to do? Street Fair in Huntington is going on tonight so I didn't really want to go to the downtown gym because of traffic...and I also didn't want to run outside because of traffic. So I did something new- I pulled my car off the road, found the first place I could park it, and just got out right there and started running. I live downtown but went to a gym that was out of downtown tonight, so I was half way back to downtown. So it wasn't the same as running downtown; however- I didn't know where I was- I always only drive the one street I know and have never explored this part of Huntington Beach before. But it was time for an adventure! Turns out- this random location I found happens to be a secret hidden treasure I knew nothing about. Golden fields of wheat swayed gently to my right with a deep red sun hanging low just over the wheat fields. The smell was insane. The breeze was even more insane. I was immediately praying prayers of gratitude on my little jog down this random little street. I followed this little road all the way to the beach, where I reached just in time to catch the most beautiful sunset over the most beautiful ocean. The waves were rolling in really really slowly and lazily, and the ocean was a gorgeous shade of jade-green. It was seriously so beautiful. I stayed there for a few minutes just feeling overwhelmed with gratitude for the moment I was having and everything that has brought me to this point. For my body that is healthy and able to run so I can have experiences like this. For the opportunity I have to live in such a beautiful place, in such a wonderful country where I enjoy all types of freedoms everyday. For my family and friends, and bloggies that support me and love me and encourage me everyday (yes that's you!!!). Everything. EVERYTHING in my life. I was so happy and so grateful. This is why I love running.
The jog back to the car was easy- and of course when I left I had to track the distance. It was exactly 2 miles. So it gave me another few good moments of cardio (maybe 17 minutes or so?). Although, when I was driving home I felt so energized and refreshed that I was half-tempted to go out and run some more!
I need to kick the Coke! Someone remind me of why I hate it!