Thursday, July 15, 2010

Up and down and back up again.

I may have started the week out strong- but it's wrapping up pretty weakly.  Yes, I'm trying to wrap it up already.  And it's only Thursday (which means I still have a weekend to get through).


This morning I woke up, did my sleepy morning shuffle to the scale, saw the number, and immediately unleashed a fury of wrathful words at my hated scale.  Then I proceeded to get in the shower and fight back tears while I suds up my fat belly.  More cussing ensued.  I finished my morning ritual, all the while debating between stuffing my non-hungry face because I was pissed and/or not eating for the rest of the day.  Neither happened, I seemed to have gotten distracted with my hair.

I'm tired of this fight today.  I feel like my ass and my belly will not cooperate.  The harder I work at getting them to let go- the more they hold on.  Forget you belly and ass fat- FORGET YOU.

I mean, I can't even type anymore right now- thinking about the whole thing is sending me into a rage.  I hope my period is about to start soon or something, because the influx of emotions I keep feeling today is NOT helping my professional or social lives right now.

I need a hug.



  1. If I were there - I'd hug you until you felt better. I'd do that for you...cuz I love you...even on days like this when it's really hard.

  2. OH, Diz, ((((DIZ)))) here's a hug. I know what it's like to be mad at my body and at the fight. I hope you're feeling better.

  3. Try to think of the amazing things that it lets you do, big butt & all:-) No, I'm not saying you have a big butt...referring more to myself! You know how the more you stress about something, the harder it seems and the more relaxed you are with something, the easier it comes? Try to reframe that way if at all possible. Enjoy the activity you're doing & the fresh wonderful foods you get to eat. This from the girl that had McDonald's this week...ha ha! Tomorrow's a 10 mile run, come run with me?

  4. There is an award for you at my blog!

  5. I wish I could hug you right now. Seriously, I want you to feel better hunny! :( I hope you're feeling better soon because you're wonderful. <3 <3