I'm stressed out. Yet again.
The problem with being stressed when you're a food addict is that you want to just eat and eat. You want breads. You want sugar. You want warm sweetness drizzled on cold ice cream and fresh cake. You want hot cheesy breadsticks dipped in marinara sauce and some ranch. You want fettucine alfredo with warm soft hunks of bread to lap up that cream sauce once the noodles are gone. You want cold cheesecake. You want anything you can get your grubby hands on. Being on a diet like Fat Flush becomes a living hell.
I've been craving bready carbs anyway for the last few days. I'm so happy that I've made it this far, but I am starting to think Weight Watchers is the better option right now than Fat Flush. I had a really good conversation with a friend the other day about Weight Watchers and it reminded me of the greatness of WW. Sure, you have to track points, and that sucks. But it ends up being a small price to pay in order to be able to choose options that are normal. You get to go out to eat with friends. You get to make pasta dishes if you want carbs. You get to have the occasional frozen yogurt. It's real life. Fat Flush may be a really good option for a week- but you can never go out to eat; you can never go over to anyone else's house to eat- it's just not a good long term option for me. I needed the flush- yes I did and I'm glad I did it this week. It's always good to give your body a break and eat super healthy for a while to clean it out. I know I said 2 months, but I'm already losing steam and losing excitement over my diet. Sure I lost a few pounds, anyone would when all they're eating is fruits and veggies. But I'm realizing that I'd rather go back to weight watchers.
So that's where I'm at right now. I went to dinner with some girlfriends tonight to BJ's and ended up "cheating" on my diet and getting a mini vegetarian pizza, which only has 4 or 500 calories, but I feel so gross. My stomach literally has shooting pains and it's HUGE and bloated. The thing is, when I'm normally eating breads, it's not that big of a deal. I can't live without them- as much as I think I can, I can't. I love them too much. The buttery crust of my mini pizza was heaven on all accounts tonight and I knew I could never cut out carbs all the way. That's one of the main reasons I want to go back to Weight Watchers. Because I could've had that little pizza tonight and not felt guilty.
And I need to make a decision quick because if there is anything I've learned...it's that you can't combine a low carb diet (which is usually high in fats) with carbs (which I did tonight). It's the perfect formula for a scale bomb. So here I am; being stressed, and realizing that I might need to just humble myself and accept that WW may just be the best option for me.
It is tried and true...