Saturday, January 30, 2010

Pretty PLEASE let it be a good week...

I've noticed something about myself in regards to dieting today. Well, 2 things.

First, when I'm super tired, I'm worthless when it comes to being healthy. I don't want to workout. I don't want to take the time to find and prepare healthy foods. I'm too tired. This is happening to me now. I got 4 hours of sleep and I'm wiped out. For breakfast this morning I had a bagel without the diet coke from Bagelmania (5 points with the lowfat butter), but I've gone 5 days without Diet Coke this week and it's getting HARD. The headaches are finally gone (I had them for 4 days), but the craving is still there, I think esp because I'm so tired. I almost caved, but luckily I had some gum that I popped in my mouth and it helped me to forget about the craving for the DC. I made it without Diet Coke again! Whew. :) BTW, chewing gum is a lifesaver for me. It seriously gets me through everything lately. I look like a cow chewing it all the time, but I don't care as long as I'm a skinny cow.

The second thing I noticed is that I seem to be really really good for 2 days, and then I start craving bad foods. This has also happened to me this week, which I think is part of the reason I'm so slow at losing weight. I did AMAZING Monday and Tuesday, Wednesday was HORRIBLE, and then Thurs and Friday were amazing again. Today (day 3) I'm struggling again. I don't want anything healthy. I want a fat greasy burger, some fries, and a coke. Not even a diet coke, a cherry coke. An ice cold Cherry Coke- a HUGE one. And my greasy burger? Tons of melted cheese. MMMMMMMM!!!!!

But I will NOT relent this week because I am super close to having a good week and I want to make it one week and have a decent drop. It won't be huge because Wed was so bad, but I feel like if I can do really well this week, it might be easier for me next week to have a perfect week. (Perfect meaning I work out 6 days of the week and stay within my points daily). That's the goal- to stay within my points everyday and workout everyday for one week. I am so close to getting out of the 140's, and I'm really motivated (as I keep saying) to just get it over with. If I can really stick with it and stay focused, I could be out of the 140's in as little as 2 1/2 to 3 weeks. That's insane to me! Right before Valentine's! I have 36 days left of my 70 day challenge (half way there!!!!), and i'm still aiming to lose 7 pounds before March 2nd. However, if I am successful in the next few weeks as I hope to be, I will have lost 5-6 pounds by Valentine's which gives me a few more weeks to get into the 130's before March 2nd. Can you believe this? I can't even believe I'm talking about being in the 130's soon. I cannot believe it. I will be so so so so overjoyed when I finally get back into the 130's. I love the 130's. I especially love the low 130's. I love the feeling of being confident and loving my body and feeling like I can do anything I want to. I love feeling in shape and sleek and sexy and feminine. But now I'm just getting excited about the 130's again. :)

Two more days til weigh in! I think I pumped myself up enough to go to the gym!


1 comment:

  1. :D Love this post. Diz, it's within your grasp. I'm so happy for you! And, thanks for the sweet note on my blog. We're just truckin down that Highway to Thin, aren't we?!