Well, my roommate officially moved out and I am sitting on the floor against the wall in our now empty living room writing this post. My house suddenly seems so large and empty. There's no tv to watch; no iPod to listen to. I feel so lonely right now! The sad thing is, she just walked out the door for the final time not even 30 minutes ago. It's because there is no furniture...everything just seems so ominous. You would think by the way that we were acting that she was moving across the Big Blue to Italy or something. Even her parents were hugging me and thanking me for being such a good friend and roommate for all of these years (they've moved her and I three times before this...believe it or not).
I'm eating frozen grapes in attempts to keep myself from ordering a pizza and some greasy cheesy bread sticks. Am I hungry? Not in the least. For some reason do I think greasy food would comfort me right now? Of course I do; hence the grapes..an attempt to satiate the oral fixation I have going on right now (plus they taste good). At least I know I have my apartment for 2 more weeks until May 1st. After that...I don't know where I'll be living or what I'll be doing. I know I won't be homeless- worst case scenario is I stay in my apartment alone for another month while I continue looking for the right place. It's expensive for one person to live here but I could do it for one month if I had to. Of course I have no furniture so it's lame, but what can I do? I can't afford to buy furniture AND rent a 2 bedroom apartment that's a few blocks from the ocean in Orange County CA. Of course, I also don't want to buy furniture and then in a month move and not need it anymore. I approached the manager of the apartment complex a few days ago and threw out the option of maybe letting me stay in the apartment alone at a discounted rate until I could find a person to move in...after all, it's better to have something on the apartment (for them) than nothing at all. She didn't seem too excited about it but also didn't completely shoot me down.
Even though I'm sad she's gone and things seem crazy right now, I'm super excited for this change. I've been so consumed with looking at apartments that I have not been able to really focus on anything else- but I know it's going to come to an end soon and I can get back to with my life.
HB Singles Conference in one week!
While this week has been HORRIBLE eating/exercising wise (literally everything has been thrown out the window since I'm consumed with housing)...I'm looking forward to getting back on track and rocking next week so I can be on point for the conference. I have so many friends that are coming into town for this thing and it's going to be a nonstop party from the Friday til Tuesday and I cannot WAIT for the relief from this housing issue. Hopefully by then I'll know what's going on and I can just relax and enjoy all the boys that will be coming this way... :)
That is the one thing I'm ready and waiting for with open arms....MEN. :) And lots of them. Summer is right around the corner and as I get closer to goal weight (I'm 5 pounds according to my weigh in on Saturday and my goal I set at WW), my confidence and flirting abilities are skyrocketing. Which means I'm single and ready to mingle baby! :)
Okay folks, I have to look at more housing...wish me luck. This is sucking the life out of me.