Now, I don't want to get into too much detail because you can read her blog for the breakdown, but I know I exhibit several, if not most of these symptoms. Which would make me a food addict. Should be that cut and dry- but for some reason I'm struggling with this idea of me being a food addict. I honestly don't think I'm in denial, but maybe I am. I will admit that I have issues...but I don't think they are any bigger or more intense than any of my friends issues with food. I have so many girlfriends who have issues with food (if we're going off of these symptoms)- than I dare say most of my friends have some sort of issue. And some of them have much bigger issues with food than I do.
But what if I can admit that I have this "problem"? Even if my issues aren't big, if I can learn tools to help me, isn't that a benefit to me?
So I've been thinking about going to Overeater's Anonymous. Although I'm not big, and I do not believe I have big issues, I want to know what tools they teach you- so that I can learn something new and maybe apply those tools to my own life, and my own struggles when I have them. If it helps in even the smallest way, isn't it worth checking out?
And yet, something about it terrifies me too. I just keep imagining people sitting in these big circles in a cold room, crying as they talk about their addictions and the hold it has over them. I don't know if emotionally I'm in that dark of a hole, and I do get affected by other people's chaos pretty easily. I just don't want to fall further down the rabbit hole if I'm not that far down to begin with- you know? Does that make sense?
So I'll continue thinking about it. Has anyone been to OA? Can they shed any light on it for the rest of us???