My supplements finally came!!! I'm so excited I can hardly stand it. Bring on the Fat Flush!!! We're supposed to start on Monday- after I get back from Vegas (which is this weekend). I don't know honestly if I can wait until next week. I've been feeling like such crap lately- I've been so ready to do this...I just don't know if I can wait. I found a website today that has Fat Flush recipes and I'm excited to try to new things and just be healthy again. My body is craving healthy...
I was telling my friend tonight about doing Fat Flush and my goal to just change my eating habits permanently. We ended up having a long chat about kicking sugar out of our diets and how much better you feel once it's finally out of your system. It only reinforced my thoughts that I need more structure and less sugar. I don't know if that's normal or not, but I hope it is. I am really excited to do this and gain some control- I hope I can maintain the control...that's the biggest thing here. The truth of the matter is- I'm just lazy. I don't want to prepare my meals- I want to buy them prepared for me. I don't want to work out- I want to watch TV. And lately I've been cutting myself extra slack on my weight; remember when I had the epiphany that I'm okay? Yeah, it's still lingering. Not that I want it to leave- but it's hard to be or stay motivated when you start to think nothing is wrong. Which leads me back to the original issues- I want to be healthy (that's why I should work out- not because I need to lose weight). Does that make sense?
I also checked out Overeater's Anonymous' website tonight per a tip from a reader...and it looks really interesting to me. I'm half tempted/half scared to go to a meeting. Part of me feels like my problems aren't serious enough for OA...the other part of me wonders if I'm just in denial and that's why I don't go. Which is it? I don't know, but I'm going to sit on this stump for a little while longer.
And there is a quick ramble of my thoughts for the evening. It's almost midnight friends- I have to get to bed before I crash in front of the computer. XO!