I'm having a hard time not being depressed today.
For one- I'm sicker than a dog. My little crossfit trainer/friend said yesterday that if I didn't have a fever, and if I didn't have body aches- that a little cardio might help me get better faster because things are moving around when you're moving around, and you might be able to get better quicker. So I went for a 5 mile run. I'm not sure if I had a fever and didn't know it or what- but after the run I was sweating like I have never sweat before. Literally 2 pounds of water...GONE. I was so hot- I was convinced it was at least 105 or hotter outside so when I checked online to see how hot it was...turns out it was only 81 degrees. And then I started feeling like CRAP! Crap crap crap.
Right now I'm somewhat okay. I took some sudafed this morning and squirted some flo-nase up my nose a few minutes ago. I'm just kind of discouraged because I really want to work out. I feel so fat after my trip home. I was telling my roommate today that I don't understand it because it's literally a 2.5 pound difference- but that 2.5 pounds must be my "breaking point" or something, because those 2.5 pounds literally make me feel obese...and when I lose them I am so much happier. Only 2.5 pounds! I know I sound completely wacko- trust me, I know. But seriously- people have been coming up to me in the last few weeks (before I went home) and asking me how much weight I've lost (several people)- and it was only that 2.5 pounds! My mom and sister both commented on how much thinner my face looked when I got home. 2.5 pounds. I don't get it. My roommate pointed out that part of what it could be is that it seems the 2.5 pounds seems to come out of my face- so I notice it. She noticed it (that it comes out of my face)- that's why she said that. Others notice it. I don't know what it is- but I am really feeling discouraged right now because that 2.5 pounds is here and I'm too sick to try to get rid of them. :(
Plus I'm sick. I don't like being sick. :(
I'm over it!