Monday, October 4, 2010

Hell.

UGHHHHHHH

I'm really unsettled right now.  So much has happened- and so much has yet to happen.  I just need to go to the gym and I'm struggling. I DON'T WANT TO.  It's cold outside and rainy and the roomie and I have been talking about watching movies and starting a little fire in the fireplace for the last 2 hours.

I ran 6 miles on Saturday and it felt amazing.  I need to do it again today. I don't want to do it again today.  I want to eat pumpkin/chocolate chip muffins dipped in hot chocolate while snuggled in a blanket on the couch.  Add some whipped cream to that please.  Today was such a hard day at work- I know I NEED to go workout; but I just don't want to.  Or maybe I need a warm blueberry muffin with melted butter all over it.  MMMMMM....

I miss my family.  I wish I lived closer to them.

I guess I have to go.  It's raining and cold outside.  I might not make it.  Pray for me that I do. Ragnar is 2 weeks away and I can't put off running any longer.  I'm supposed to meet with my friend for Crossfit tomorrow morning at 7 am.  I'm not in the mood for this. ANY of it.  I ate horribly today and have that mentality of 'who cares anyway I already blew it'.

UGHHHHHHH

Bye.

D

4 comments:

  1. the hardest part is getting out the door - every stinkin time.
    I saw someone with a Ragnar shirt today and thought of you - you'll kick butt woman!

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  2. It will be worth it. =) Did you make it?

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  3. You can do it!! Usually I am not even feeling it til' after the first 30 minutes.

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  4. Go. Right now. I got back on the treadmill today and did 65 minutes and didn't want to. Do it. You will feel better afterwards and you haven't blown anything. I know you want this...so prove it to me and to yourself. The couch will await when you get back. ILYG

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