I survived my weigh in. I dropped 2 pounds this week. Go me! I'm satisfied with that. While ultimately my goal was to get OUT of the 140's, I'm going to have to wait another week to do so. Which is ok, because what I didn't realize today, but my leader pointed out, is that I made my 10% goal, which ended up being really good for me. They did this little honor/reward thing I wasn't expecting and asked me how I did it and what it feels like, and I wasn't expecting any of this so I had to actually stop and think about what was happening right then. Believe it or not, I was at a loss of words for like, 15 seconds. It dawned on me in that moment that I just lost 10% of my body (Well...I didn't just lose it, but anyway). It's funny because while I was hemming and hawing up there in front of everyone, I caught myself referring to my friends that are helping me, and when the leader asked if it was friends in the room, I said no- my blogger friends...which then meant I had to tell everyone about my blog and my blogger friends. I felt a little sheepish but no one seemed to care. But after I sat down and was admiring my little key chain (my first key chain ever- normally I just get a sticker), I thought back to 10% ago and I was just so grateful that 10% is gone. I want it to be gone forever. The way I feel about myself and my accomplishments now vs how I felt back then...yeah. Feels good.
And the other good news is that now I can relax and go enjoy my bagel with my roommate, because the pressure is off for a few more days. I've thought a lot about what you guys have said about the scale and weighing obsessively. I know I have a problem; it's a compulsion more than anything else. I feel like a hoarder, only opposite- and with my personal body. I'm ashamed to admit I weigh in as much as I do. Sometimes I weigh in as much as 6 or 7 times a day. Pretty much anytime I use the restroom, I weigh. Is this bizarre? I've been thinking about WHY I do it...I think it brings me comfort. You would think it would bring me anxiety, but it only brings me anxiety when I'm about to go to WW and I see numbers creeping upwards instead of staying the same or moving down. Strange, I know. Anyway, what you've all said is very poignant and has given me some things to think about. I don't know if I can "quit" the scale right now, at least not cold turkey, but in a week my roommate is moving and I will be forced to quit because I won't have one anymore...and it will be interesting to see what happens. Part of me is kind of excited after reading what some of you have said regarding the consistent weighing, but part of me is really anxious. How one person goes a whole week or even longer without weighing...OMG that is just unfathomable to me. I will be so stressed when I have no idea where I'm at before a weigh in. And yet I will have to enter this realm soon.
Okayyyy....now that I've unveiled another one of my weird quirks...I think I'm going to stop now. It's Saturday, time to go look at some apartments! Wish me luck in finding my new home!
D
Woohoo 10%!!! That is awesome!
ReplyDeleteMaybe being without the scale will be good for you. You seem to be completely happy with yourself and in a really good place in your life right now. Don't let that number on the scale change that for you.
Diz! so incredibly proud of you for dropping two pounds! i used to do this really stupid thing where i would get in a rut and weigh myself in the middle of the day- when i saw fluctuation, it was kind of like, i gained. might as well just eat anything. i haven't weighed in since about february, which was has been a good break- but i'm thinking it wouldn't hurt to get into the habit of weighing once a week or so? at the end of the day, i think we NEED to weigh- to face reality.
ReplyDeleteCONGRATULATIONS ON THE LOSS!!!!!!!! ONE HALF A POUND AWAY FROM THE 130S!!!!!!!!!! WAHOOO!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteOkay, I'll stop shouting now. But, WAHOOOO!!!!
Two pounds is HUGE--and after salty pizza, too.
You go, fierce gilr! I'm so excited for you!!!!
Sorry I missed last night's post. Sometimes the time difference gets us. I weigh every time I go to the bathroom, too. Uh-hmmm. chuckle. I realize that may not be much comfort. hahaha. since I'm not the sanest grape in the bunch.
Seriously, tho, re: your roommate moving. You may enjoy living by yourself for a bit. It has a certain charm to it. I realize that finances may be an issue, but while you've got solitude--enjoy it.
and, CONGRATULATIONS ON THE POUNDS GONE!!!!!!
Deb
YAY - a loss - you so deserved it! Me and Sheniqua are doing the booty dance right now for you (it's nasty looking but we mean well.)
ReplyDeleteKeep up the blogging, good writing and keep up the goals! Congrats on meeting your goals D. Hard to do in any aspect of life ;)
ReplyDeleteCongrats on reaching your 10% goal. That is a big deal! Did you get a keychain with the ceremony? I use mine all the time. Good luck on finding an apartment!
ReplyDeletegreat loss and nice job on reaching your 10% goal! you are doing great :)
ReplyDeleteSoooooooooooooooo awesome!!!!!! Yay! Yay! Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteYou rock D! I love when I get on your blog and the first thing I look at (of course) is your weight. I get SO excited to see it down from last time I checked your blog. You are such a little skinny minny! I am so proud of you! I just want to cry reading this post. Could it be the hormones? Could be part of it but really, I am SO happy for you! Living vicariously through right now.
ReplyDeleteI had no idea your obsession over the scale. How did I not know this about you friend? Girl, quit the scale! ;) No, I say what makes you feel at ease and what works for you, keep doing. That doesn't work for other people such as myself. It would depress me and make me anxious and I couldn't do it but if it helps you, do it!
Also, do you watch Biggest Loser? I LOVED what Jillian said on there last week! This would totally work for you since you are pretty much at your goal weight ( I think?) Her tip was to have 2 strict eating days, 3 moderate days and relax somewhat on the weekends. If I wasn't prego, I would try that. I love that approach! But since I'm a bit more obsessive than most people, I would do 3 really strict days and 2 moderate days. I think mentally that would do the trick. What do you think about that? Love you! Miss you much! Good luck with the apartment hunting. I've been thinking about you with that. Hope it goes well! Loves!
Wow Diz, 2 lbs for such a slim girl is fabulous. Congratulations!! I also talk about my blogging friends at my WW meetings too. This is such a powerful support network for me (*_*)
ReplyDeleteKeep up the awesome work!!
Congratulations on your 10% award. It is a big deal! I have one too and love the support I get at my WW meetings but nothing can compare to our blogging support! Hurrah, Diz! Hurrah, bloggers!
ReplyDeletewooo hoooo! Congradulations Diz that is so amazing that you made your 10% your sexy biznitch! Yay! All the hard work you did this weekend and 10% IS GONE! I am sooo happy! Good luck on your apartment search! And just give it a try with out the scale...the only thing you can't do are things that you think you can't! Big Kisses
ReplyDeleteCongratulations Diz I knew you could do it. I'm also an at home weigher but I only do it in the morning and never again during the day.. because it will inevitably go up and I can't take it... I feel like I've said this before.. lol Anyway you rock!!
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